A problem with being a sort of abstractish thoughtful person is that my journals don't help me find out things like am I just tired because it's midterms or is there something unusual going on.
I always kind of envy people who say things like "I'm always tired when . . ." or "I always respond to . . . like . . ." or "I'm the kind of person who . . ." -- even though I know I shouldn't -- because I can't remember what I did yesterday, much less how I felt at this time last year, or what I feel or do "normally."
Do other people sit down and think about these things? Or do they take self-assessment tests? Or keep records?
I know I'm a kind of person who likes to read (but doesn't have time), likes words and dictionaries (but rarely reads those, either), and graduated law school (but I forget that, too, some of the time). Chances are I'm tired. And who knows how I'll respond if . . . happens.
I've been lots of places, but none (except home) for long. And read a lot of things; I just can't remember where I read them. I like math, but I get horribly confused counting out change in the grocery store. I say I like libraries, but really except for the familiar little County library down the street, I spend most of my time in libraries trying to find the way OUT because the strange books intimidate me. I like to teach, but I have a horrible time trying to work on a lecture without getting distracted by a hundred rabbit trails. And looking at a stack of papers to grade gives me a sick feeling. Then I'm happy again when I pick up the red pen and horrified again when I realize that my grade ends up on someone's transcript. I shop for tailored-y looking things and shirts with collars, but in the morning when it comes to choosing between the latest conquest and a t-shirt, the t-shirt wins almost every time. Or the UChicago sweatshirt with the holes in it (makes me feel smarter). I would tell you I'm a good student, except I know that I almost never study and wile away most classes doodling in the margins. I think internet communication is inhuman and sad and messing us all up, but I have a blog and Facebook and am more than 10 times more likely to e-mail you than call.
And if I look it up in a journal to try to figure out what kind of person I am it says something completely unhelpful and vague (but that sounds nice).
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I looked in "The Journal", and after checking out all the 'entries' I discovered the kind of person you are: A precious child of the King.
"Praise the LORD! Sing to the LORD a new song, and His praise in the assembly of saints. Let Israel rejoice in their Maker; let the children of Zion be joyful in their King. Let them praise His name with the dance; let them sing praises to Him with the timbrel and harp. For the LORD takes pleasure in His people; He will beautify the humble with salvation."
Uncle Don
Maybe one of these two?
http://www.personalitypage.com/INTP.html
http://www.personalitypage.com/INTJ.html
You are kind and thoughtful. You're a good friend, even from a distance. You love to help people, especially when you know just the right way to help them. Music inspires you and you use that inspiration to encourage others in ways you will never even realize in this lifetime. You love family and yearn for one of your own soon. You are impatient with time sometimes but always reigning that impatience in so it doesn't interfere with day to day life. You are beautiful and talented and extremely smart. You add a lot of wisdom to the world wide web that encourages and challenges a lot of readers (probably more than you realize). You are Emilius to me and probably many other affectionate names to many other people. This is the way I would describe who you {typically} are to another person {in my not so important opinion/observations}. ;)
I think I know what you mean. I have all these lofty, romantic ideals of and for myself that I so often fall so short on. I love to read literature, but I rarely make time for it. Life gets in the way a lot of the time.
I make lists in my head of what I'll do differently when I'm grown-up...but I'm wondering when exactly I'll be grown-up.
But, having said that, I always find your blog interesting and insightful. Lots of bloggers use blogs as a platform to itemize their day (I did this, then this) or to brag about themselves. You ponder theological, social, musical, and political subjects. So cool!
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