Lately I have been reflecting on the irrationality of feelings (maybe feelings are irrational by definition; I forget).
For the past couple of weeks, while I have been waiting to hear back about my interview, I have felt very unproductive. There were a couple of job applications that I KNEW I should finish, and that I had every intention of finishing, but they just weren't getting done.
And I felt horrible about it. In the meanwhile I was getting a lot of other things done -- just not the applications.
Well, this morning I woke up and said to myself "today I am not going to do anything or go anywhere until I finish these applications." So I didn't (or, rather, did). I didn't even eat or drink anything until I finished the applications.
At about 1:30 I finished and e-mailed my first application off, and finally got up to find some coffee and nourishment (which happened to be homemade truffles) before sitting and hammering out the second. By about 3:30 I had received an e-mail from Human Resources saying that the position had been filled.
BUT (and this is the funny part)
I still felt twenty times more productive than I have in a couple of weeks.
How does that make any sense at all?